Yesterday I went to the grocery store and Wal-Mart with my husband, I was feeling pretty good, we were probably gone a little over an hour. So an hour of walking, I made some chicken enchiladas for dinner, another hour on my feet, dinner was great, sat on heating pad an hour or so, went to bed early.
Today, holy molly, what in the world!!! I have pain going on everywhere. I swear I have daggers in my back and my feet going into my heels. It is amazing how one day you feel great and the next day everything goes to crap. The sun is out you feel awesome, the sun is out you want to curl up in a little ball and die. It rains outside same scenario. I cannot figure out what keeps it going good or bad.
And then I try so hard to be the strong one, I am OK. What am I thinking, I shouldn’t have to act like I am ok, especially when I feel so bad but I hate saying I have let myself get in this much pain, like it is my fault. I hate being where I am and have no idea how to fix this.
I really want to feel good, I would do anything to go back to feeling like I did 7 years ago. Loving life, running with my guys, throwing a football. So unfair.